Tuesday, November 30, 2021

A prayer for our times

Help me see, visualize in the darkness
Let me see stars twinkling through the clouds
Bless me with hearing the fires lifting up lanterns to the sky
I hold a candle burning bright with love

Living in both darkness and light
Often preferring the dark
The brightness gleams still
Even in the darkness, 
Just protected, covered up temporarily

Meet me there where the fires flame
In that sweet moment of dazed trance
Enter the space together with me
As we dance during all phases of the moon

Greet me when your darkness invades you
I will hold your hand, hug you closely
Our broken hearts beating in unison with grief and hope
We bless each other with grace

When the day is done
Our tears having been shed
Enter the dreamworld
Full of light and oh so many textures and tones
Reflecting each of our flames
Mirroring a rainbow full of all colors

Tuesday, November 23, 2021

All Alone

All Alone

It can happen

In a split second


They are here

Then they are gone


Imagine what to do

When you are given

All Alone


Been there before

But not like this

Not after this

Long time

Of Love


Shock, startle

Numb, groan

Desolate

Despair


Crying, screaming, weeping

Moaning, wailing, keening


And after oh so long a time


Finally

Coming back to life

To breathe once again

Sunday, November 14, 2021

Spirit Guides

Angel, who are you?

I am the fire that you breathe

I am the water that you swallow

I am the blood that runs through 

Your veins and pours out of your mouth

I am the breath and power of life


Tom, who are you?

(Not your old friend)
I am your sex witch
Your wicked, playful

Desirous self

Who longs for and wants

Ecstasy, engagement, connection


Michael, who are you?
(Not your brother)
I am the magnificent, vibrant

One who comes to you

When you are fearful

Holds onto you when 

You feel mangled

Who helps you die

And transform

The one who rebirths you


Who am I?

A wandering, mystical

Soul who explores her

Multiverse while planting seeds


By your help I am learning

How to live as a mortal and

Act more kindly and knowingly

Feeling all of the divine particles

Flowing through my body

And all around me


Great compassion and grace

Saturday, November 13, 2021

Wandering

If I travel too far down into 

The places and spaces

That I want to explore

I fear not coming back


Why come back?

To this concrete reality 

Its chaos, ego and competition

The base where I usually live? 


I fear if I lose my mind

I may need caretaking, 

Like parents suffering a stroke

Or developing dementia


I see clearly the blockages

The clots of grief as I 

Dabble in the Dark Arts

Frightened but Famished


Maybe these Arts

Are not that dark at all 

Seductive, uncovering, revealing

Maybe they are Bright Arts


Illuminating expansion and freedom

Adventure and safety

All lusty items for those 

Who wander



Improvisation


Bright yellow beams within
Startling yet warm
Striking hot, sweet and salty
Moods drift between spicy and shocking

Shaken up a little
Redesigning a fantasy life
Improvising with piano notes 
Jazz saxophone, bassoon
Flute and piccolo

Wrapping brightness in a blanket
Dark and comfortable, covering 
Skin, dulling eyes and nerves
Soothing frantic feelings and frights

Instead of escaping or
Numbing completely, turning
Head toward husband and dog and
Grinning

Sounds erupt, tones like crying
Tears dripping with sadness and joy
Life's improvisation over time
Plays off the last chiming note recently heard

Monday, November 8, 2021

Mother Elephant

She“leadeth me beside the still waters, 

He [she] restoreth my soul.” 

~ Psalm 23:2 KJV, the Bible


Mother’s stroke

Elephants’s child


Fuzzy brain

Memory like no other


Loss of independence

Living on and on forever


Taking care of babies,

Elderly, children

Animals, all of the plants

Trees, bushes, and 

Beings on land, in the air
And at sea


Caring for the sick and infirm

Soothing those

With disease or fear

Showing them the light

Through the trunk of her soul

Spewing out water and dirt and all

Types of matter over every creature

Showering us all with healing

Energies of Light


When we scream and cry

She hears us

She soothes us with her

Arms or trunk, trumpeting

Her signals through the air

Calling for healing and love

To enter us through 

Osmosis


Just being close to her

And to any other beings

Just being close to Air 

Fire, Water, and Earth

We feel her 

Granular Graces

We touch her

Darkness as she leads

Us down and through

Tragedy and Hell

Holding us tenderly until

We arrive on the other side


Greeting her again and again

She is always there

For us