Merge, Molt, Emerge

Cramming my head into the 

Rotted out trunk of a tree

Trying to rid the skin

Still attached to my bones

Shedding flesh

Stopping midstream

Hanging onto the past instead of

Surrendering to new blood, new life

What stops me?

I have loved the merge

Between Mother and Child

Between partners and friends

Merging, immersed into the

Oneness of All

Now I want to separate from

The Merge into more freedom

More independence

More autonomous, more alone

Don’t know how or where - yet

Emerging continues in process

My head crashing through the waves

Trying to enter the bliss of

Oneness once again

Without leaving the merge

Between me and Goddess

Between Spirit and Self

Emerging hanging onto the

Old me and entering the new me

Frightening and scary

Is this purgatory amongst the living?

Limbo, on hold, muted and 

Soundless though I want to speak

Loudly and forcefully once again?

Maybe in this emergent Self, I am 

Becoming is quieter, kinder

Less busy, more still

I don’t know her well yet

Who are you, new Self?

Me?

Why I am the calm between the storms

I am the princess of peace and

The grounded bodhisattva

I am you who sits quietly under

The Magnolia tree

Looking up into her overarching

Branches, seeing hope and light

Me?

I am you, a different part of you

Who is content to be part of 

The One

No longer needing the spotlight

So much of the time

Me?
I am your higher self

The tiny old shepherdess

Who gave you her staff

Who gave you the white Lamb

I am the one who trusts 

Without anxiety or fear

The one who sees clearly, softly

Not challenging what is

But becoming more aligned with

What is

I am the elder who whispers 

Into your ear, telling you to

Breathe, to relax

No need to worry or strain

No need to become 

Consumed or obsessed

I am you

We are one

We are merging

Molting

Emerging 

Altogether, all at once

Complete

At peace

Blessed

Peace When There is No Peace

Utter madness

Sanctimonious and ominous

Green with greed

Malicious, malignant destruction

Those who want to rule the world

Those who cannot be halted by

Mere individuals and prayer

Continue to dig graves for 

Those others who are so willing

To believe in one way, one person

One opinion

Fake news and False prophets

Those less mad

Join hands and suffer

Feeling helpless, hopeless

Angry and sad

Unable to use our energies

Our brute strength, our votes

And our spirits to rid the world

Of this virulent cancer

Not yet

We crawl into holes in the sand

Not being able to breathe

Underneath unstable, shifting particles

Blowing over and around us

We scream, we wail

We denounce all the unfairnesses

The injustice and the terror of 

Living in such a world as this

Sometimes

We go about our days

No longer watching the news

Too heart-wrenching

And chaotic 

We work, we play, and we love

Knowing that somewhere deep 

Within us lives a spark of possibility

Hope and Ascension

Peace when there is no peace

Now

Awake

The sun is rising

See the darkness and the light

Witness the truth and the fictions

Believe, believe 

We are powerful, not weak

Gathering our sparks together

Proclaiming We are One

Burning out this disease

Cauterizing these spectres

Who work against our human

And divine values of 

Compassion and love

Source and Spirit

Their ashes fly up and around

Lifting off from Mother Earth 

Released from gravity, a spiral

No magnetism no more

Spewing out of our atmosphere

Journeying beyond

It is Done

The Blessings

Blessed are they who speak out against injustice

Blessed are they who act in just and fair ways

Blessed are those who seek out health and well-being for all

Blessed are those who love and are open to be loved

Blessed are they who share themselves with others

Blessed are they who give without needing reward

Blessed are those who support all people and all living beings

Blessed are those who strive to improve the health of our planet

When fear, anger, resentment and disappointment reign

We act out impulsively in rage without thinking

When we feel insecure, or feel like we don’t belong

We sometimes find attention however we can get it

Or, we close up so tightly inside ourselves

That we disappear for a long moment

Tending to our own wounds, licking our injuries

Until we feel healthier, stronger, more able

To work for the improvement of all that we see

To hear, love and hate, smell and taste

When we hate, we feel monstrous inside

When we love, we sprinkle sparkles all around

Keeping our own heads above water

Helps us do for others, do for ourselves

Break the news to the world that we are available

To hold, to shelter, to feed and to love

Blessed are the ones who feel little shame

When they act lovingly with the greatest of ease

Blessed are the ones who carry the guilt, the worthlessness

Embarrassment, hypocrisy, gloom, and grief

For the rest of us

May no one harm others with their actions even though

They are miserable or furious about life itself

Let them be swept up into the oracles, far away into the cosmos

Let them rise without taking our children with them

Let there be compassion and kindness when people are suffering

Let there be less judgment when any living being is in pain

Let those leaders who are full of greed and need for authoritarian rule

Be turned out to pasture immediately, banished from society

No more races to be run

No more promises to break

No more violence to be enacted

Let them eat grass, wander the meadows, and rest

Blessing us all

Clenching, Grasping, Gripping

 Clenching

Gasping, gripping

Jaws

Hands

Muscles

Teeth

Fingers

Sphincters

What if 

Instead of clenching

We let go

Relax

Release

Imagine a new world

Into Being

Yes, many fears about messes

About vomit and feces

About surrendering

Truly liberating

Some patterns and ways

That have helped us

Survive all these years

No need to ditch them all

Just bring each part up

Take a good smell

Or a tiny taste

Look and hear

Touch 

Breathe in deeply

Ask, how do you serve me now?

One part may respond:

“I am old and tired

I don’t want to have to keep

Being so hypervigilant

Protecting you so often

Preventing disaster

My days are done”

Another part might scream out

“I am young and excited

You still need me here

Because I bring you joy and

Pleasure, without too much risk

Or bad results

Keep me!”

Another may not answer at all

And may fly away with the cool breeze

Into another space and time

Like leaves do, without complaint

Or stress, they know when

To untether, to drop away

Allow them to

Or wonder why you can’t

Or won’t

Let them go

Loosening your grip

Resting

Energizing

Without clenching

Grasping, gripping

Transforming

Transmuting

Transitioning

To this new life

The one that is here

For us all