Wherever I AM

I heard today from beyond that for me

Florida is a state of Mind

I added to that voice, it is also

A state of Heart and Body

I found peace in Florida

Calm and joy in the salt waters

Of my soul in its quiet space

Harder for me to feel that in our city

Is Florida where I need to be or

Rather, do I get to find out

How to find that Peace of Mind

Heart and Body wherever I am?

In whatever state, whatever beach

Whatever city or mountain

Can I find ways to BE HERE NOW

Wherever I am?

Hopefully so, because longing for and 

Chasing one place or another is an ever-changing

Tide, shifting back and forth

Up and down, erratic and full of feelings

High tide, low tide, just because 

That is how tides flow, with regularity

I want to be a rugged raptor gliding in the sky

Subject to winds, breezes and air currents

That assist in flight but also sometimes 

Change my path, when I fly against instead of with

Would I rather be a coral watching

The tides flow by, or am I then subject

To Climate Change and Bleaching

Starved from too much warm water

Too often?

Maybe it’s not a matter of who or what

I want to be, maybe it is a matter of 

Who I AM, taking me wherever I go

Escorting me on whatever journey I desire

Always needing to stop, be still

Relax, breathe and listen, listen, listen

So that I will remember who I AM
And be just that and nothing more or

Different, just being here now

After all, it has been my harsh judgments of the city

The noise, stress, danger, and dense frequencies

Realizing these are not good for me

So location does matter, and still I can stay

Connected to myself, to my family, and to my soul

While the world drifts by whether in 

Hurricanes or wildfires, and

I will lie down peacefully in 

The chaos of whatever dynamic or disarray

And, breathe, being at one with 

Spirit, Soul, Mind, Heart and Body

All willing and all connected together 

With glowing, fine filaments

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Sacred Chalice

Chaos, violence, pestilence and

Bright white smattering light

Connected between human bodies

Mother Earth, and Spirit

Extremes and juxtapositions

Longing for the beams of bright

Denying, avoiding or resisting

The dark blackness of density

Ushering us into a new time

A New Earth

A Sudden Transformation

That takes its time

Moving slowly across the desert

Slouching towards Bethlehem

Through war, famine, rape

Murder, quenching only slightly

The traumatized authoritarian rulers

Who demand utter loyalty and

Blind devotion, a 

Mockery of Christian values

Make humanity great again?
Humans have always been dark and light

Hungry for food, shelter, sex and 

Power, filling our appetites to the brim

Horrific tragedy and trauma

Flowing over from this sacred chalice 

A biological correction begins

Destroying the old, celebrating the new

The phoenix finally dives toward

The earth, dashing herself into the
Ground only to burn into glowing ashes

To become reborn so differently

Than ever before 

City, not City

City

Opportunities

Fifty years in this city

Wondrous energy

Hard work

Darkness, density

Community

Raising a family

Joy and Stress

Dryness and congestion

Chiggers and allergies

Tired, slowing down

Done

Not city

Bright and sparkly

Freedom and Peace

Expansion of awareness

Fluttering wings

Quiet, humble

Friendly, calm

Dragonflies

Salty wet breezes

Relaxing in a 

New community

Wild Peace

I try both

Lovely, different birds in each

When coming back to city

From not city

I yearn for not city

Feeling city interstate

Nearby, vibrating my bones

Organs, heart and mind

Jostling my spirits and senses

I grow numb in city

Get busy in city

Involuntarily protecting

Myself from all the noise

Crime, traffic, sirens

Concrete hard edges

Roars and monsters

I stay indoors

Only to venture out to see

Trees, plants, gardens

Nature and people

I walk with loving dogs

Who seem to find

Both city and not city smells

Very Interesting

They bark indoors 

Sensing and hearing

The numerous and consistent

Shudderings, frequencies

Sounds of all sorts

Ghosts, hardships

Poverty and longings

Politics and chaos

People and critters

Rats, chipmunks, mice

Rattling around

(or am I projecting?)

My heart, body, mind, and

Soul are nurtured best 

In not city

(used to be in city

not so anymore)

I need to return to not city

Soon to remember and

To reconnect to

Who I am

There 

Where and how

I want to be

Ecstasy

What if everything in this world is a playground

A training space or a mystical paradise

Enclosed in an orb of gorgeous clouds and

Blue skies, holding all of us inside it

So that we can grow and heal

As human beings?

What if some of the living beings on our planet and

In other realities throughout the cosmos are

Different from human beings and

That we each surround and support

All that is

Vibrationally?

What if all living beings are

Part of nature, just like we are

With different skills, different intuitions

Different instincts and that

We all migrate through birth and life

Transformation and physical death

Sometimes choosing our places and

Sometimes being planted here for

Maybe eternity

With all its comings and goings?

What if all that is in the cosmos and in space

All that is in every galaxy and our galaxy

What if all planets stars suns moons asteroids

And chunks of other substances are out there

And inside us as well?

What if some or all of us came

From those galactic places

And we incarnated here on earth

So that we can help other humans

And all living beings

Explore healthy ways to live their lives with

This new Earth approaching, and with

This new Space and Time happening

All together, merging together so that

All of us here inside this beautiful and precious

Changing orb will continue to unite with other galaxies

And star systems and all materials everywhere?

What if we are all connected to

The Source of Light and Darkness

To Divine Intelligence and the Great Mysteries?

What if all that I see and all that I hear and

All that I smell and touch and notice and

Acknowledge is a part of me and is a

Part of you and is a part of the whole?

What if knowing that

We can rejoice and celebrate and

Live more peacefully in bliss

Wherever we are and in whatever shape or form we take

Realizing that pain and suffering is just a part of

Being a living being in this world?

Can we experience everything from pain and tragedy to

Great joy and bliss

Knowing that each are just real and true?

What if this is what ecstasy is?