Abandon

To have been abandoned

To abandon

To be left

To leave

Giving up or surrendering

With abandon

Can be good, or not

Depends

To be alone

To be rejected

To be left all alone

To long to be alone

To leave others alone

To be offered love

To be or act loving

To receive love

To truly receive being loved

What is wrong with me

What is wrong with them

Why do I hurt

Why do I hurt them?

We suffer, we moan

Even if only on the inside

We can also feel joyful and peaceful

We can feel calm

We can feel pain

We don’t create all of 

Our experiences in life

We do sometimes participate 

In them, however

We may not be to blame for

Cancer

Car wrecks

Divorce

Disease

Deaths

Chaos

Trauma reactions

We blame ourselves 

For such ‘bad’ things

Because if it is our fault then

Maybe we can take control

And change it, maybe, still

Unable to take responsibility

For positive outcomes

Who abandoned whom first?

All babies and children

Had child brains

They perceived any badness

Pain, agony, distress

Around them 

As about them

That’s all their not completely

Formed brains knew to do

Unfortunately, we have carried

Those beliefs into our adult lives

Not feeling good enough

Denunciating ourselves for something

Not in our control

Guilty for what we did or didn’t do

Inadequate, defective

Shameful and embarrassed

Even when whatever happened

Had nothing to do with us

At all

Hearing, seeing, understanding these words

Does not change much of anything

What can help us change 

Early wounding that has so 

Affected us throughout our lives?

Deep work

Spiritual work

Excellent therapy

Meditation practice

Psychedelic practice

Bodywork

Breathwork

Engagement with a 

Caring mentor, teacher

Parent, friend, clergy member

And so many other ways

And, all the above

To plunge into these core beliefs

To even explore what’s there

So deep within us

(We are not even conscious

Of many of these beliefs)

If the beliefs are not challenged, understood

And transformed, we can

Keep suffering

Physically, emotionally

And, in so many other ways

We want to heal from this wounding 

To care for our abandoned parts

And stop abandoning

Ourselves and each other

We learned to abandon

And to be abandoned

Let’s learn something new